Monkey's Songs
Chorus:
Suicidal Seuss (I'll never reach you) These thoughts are driving me insane
Swirling, whirling in my brain
They're making me feel sick inside
I want to run, I want to hide.
You must think you're pretty great--
I suppose that it's my fate
To have to deal with all this shit
Before I grow to live with it.
Contents:
Suicidal Seuss
Bubble Fest
Flying Too Close to the Sun
The Ides of March
I Think you're Crazy
Inverted Love Song
Noodle Hazard
Open the World
You're Scared Now
Really Close to Perfect
Kamikaze
Never gave you reason not to,
Never even tried to stop you.
Life's a lesson you can't learn,
Love is something you won't earn.
Maybe someday you'll grow out of
Lying to those you claim to love.
I know now I cannot teach you.
I know now I'll never reach you.
Leaving me must have been fun--
I thought that you might be the one
That delivered me to grace
But my emotions spent to waste.
The time I spent awake at night,
The often-times confusing fight
For sovereignty from Freedom's reign
Have come back to confuse again.
Chorus
Paranoia is an ill
That cannot be cured by a pill.
I hope, someday, that you'll see
All the things you've done to me.
I remember asking why
You'd want to hurt me, want to lie--
I'll never fall for those again
No matter why, no matter when.
Chorus
Securities are running thin--
I know now that I'll never win
Against your armies, Charm and Wit
So I guess I'll deal with it.
Irrational is what you'll call me,
Impulsive, even, but I'll be free
From your torture, from your strife
From my own tormented life.
Chorus
Bubble Fest
I woke up today
And saw the world for the very first time.
Who forgot to tell me
Not everything was fine?
Why was I lead
To believe that life was beautiful; Fun,
A fucking Bubble Fest?
'Cuz I've found out it isn't one.
Chorus:
You'll protect me. In doing so,
You'll destroy me. It'll show
That anyone could see
The best thing you could do for me
Would be to let me go,
Would be to let me go.
I've been very blind
For so very long, no doubt
I should give all my thanks to you
Before you turn and throw me out.
Nice job you've done
Of giving me the things I need.
You've left the most important one.
It's me who'll suffer, me who'll bleed.
Chorus
Bridge:
I think that I am going to puke.
Don't hold a bucket to my head.
You've done enough. It's one big fluke
That I have gotten out ahead
Or even alive.
Your morals are screwed
To their self-made sticking place
You drive me mad--
Now I'm doomed to mass disgrace.
('cuz)
Chorus (2x)
Flying Too Close to the Sun
I used to be so happy--
I used to smile a lot
I tried to really smile today
But think that I forgot.
I used to laugh at everything,
But now my laughter's forced.
It's not that I'm not happy, really--
Just don't have a source.
Chorus:
The sky is ice, the Earth is fire
Icarus' wings are taking me higher
Away from this heat, away from my soul
I'm gonna fall soon and out of control.
If you could look into my mind,
You don't know what you'd see.
You think you do, but no, my friend,
Truth is, you don't know me.
Chorus
Bridge:
Happy days have come and gone,
The game's no longer fun.
When things were good, I was flying
Too close to the sun.
The moon is rising once again
The sun sets on the day
And maybe someday I'll do what
I should have done today
Chorus (2x)
The Ides of March
Immaculate inaccuracies
Are all that you've presented me.
Go on, form your conspiracies
To kill the Caesar.
Your evidence is bullshit, please
Don't tell me that you needed me
To lead the search for golden fleece
At kindest leisure.
Chorus:
The Ides of March are come,
But they're not gone
And I'm still wondering
What went wrong.
This mess you got me into's great.
There's more? Oh joy, I just can't wait!
I'm glad that you're so high on Fate
And what she gave us.
I think you should evaluate
Your present state of mind--oh wait,
You lost that mind, and plans of late
Will fit up your ass.
Chorus
I Think You're Crazy
You're saying things, but sorry, friend
They've just never made much sense
And sometimes I kinda wish
You'd take your mind and go away.
This talking will achieve no end
It's like a scratched and dirty lens
Of old cameras, and a fish
Tossed in to make these things "okay"
Chorus:
Flashing lights, bleeping buzzers
Turning into bright-dull colours
Making every bit of sense
That you happen to.
Life is filled with nice surprises,
Consequence, and compromises.
Well, I'm putting up more fence--
A million feet will never do.
I can't see your point of view,
However hard I'm trying to.
Maybe I should give up now
On what I thought just might shape out.
Monkeys come from me to you
I don't know hat they're gonna do
Nor why, nor when, nor even how
I'll ever be allowed to shout.
Chorus
Come on, sucker, let it fly.
Give me all your reasons why.
Let me laugh before I choke
On bits of mistrusts given freely.
I think you're crazy.
Inverted Love Song
You're here because you want to be,
Offering apologies
Well, all you'll do is bother me
Until you go away.
It's not my fault I wanted you,
You gave me lots of reason to
But now all that I'll ask of you
Is that you go away.
Chorus:
The roses are black, the sky is red
You're gonna move out of my head
And when you do, I'll cry for joy
And love you 'cuz I hate you.
And love you 'cuz I hate you.
I thought you were my everything,
My joy, my hope, my season spring,
Well, now the songs that I will sing
Won't be for praising YOU
Chorus
Loneliness is relative,
Aloneness is my sedative,
Asking me for motives? Well,
There's none for me to give, my friend.
Chorus (2x)
Noodle Hazard
You walk alone,
With earth above
And sky beneath your feet.
And when I dream,
I dream of you.
In dreams, you're very sweet.
I like to think
The earth is round
When you say it is flat
But then you go
And put me down.
Well, I expected that.
Chorus:
Your words are missing meaning,
Your truths are not so true.
I trusted without proof, and now,
I've given in to you.
I thought perhaps
You cared enough
To help me see this through.
You're making fun
Of things I say
And everything I do.
I shouldn't have
Let go of hope
That could have pulled me through,
But I did,
And now I find
I'm trapped inside of you.
Chorus
Bridge:
Everything we had today turned sour as a lime.
Seems that only yesterday could stand the test of time.
Whatever was the future then became the past today
And all the hope I held for it was yours to throw away.
I wish I
Could leave you here--
Could live out my own life.
Being so
Dependant hurts--
It feels just like a knife.
You're the kind
That sucks me in
And never lets me go.
True love is
Something that
You will never know.
Chorus
Open the World
Pack your bags and go,
Leave my head alone, and you say
Everyone is stoned
But no-one's gonna point that out today.
I wish that you could see me,
I wish that you could hear.
I wish that you would say that
You won't try to change me.
Chorus:
Nowhere to run,
Nowhere to hide.
Open the world,
See what's inside.
(2x)
Everything is black
When it isn't white or grey,
Don't want you to come back,
Don't want to be alone, or you to stay.
I wish that you would touch me.
I wish that you were here.
I wish I knew what I wanted--
When I wanted it was clear.
Chorus
Bridge:
Escaping is impossible, it amplifies the pain,
I know this isn't all my fault, I know I’m not to blame.
You make things seem so difficult, you know that they are not.
You said you'd try to help me out, you haven't helped a lot.
Silence is immense,
Covers me like woollen blankets.
Things sure made more sense
When the world was imitated.
I wish that you would listen,
I wish you understood.
I wish you'd help me out, 'cuz
We both know that you could.
Chorus (2x)
You're Scared Now
You're making up these stories
About things no-one likes.
Give him a break, it's all he can take,
And more than he can do.
So what if it was you?
Didn't you see butterflies
When hornets swarmed around your head?
You planted seeds, they sprout up weeds.
The world is always wrong.
You never looked from another's point of view, it's always you,
It's always you.
Chorus:
Mary's little lamb
Is running away
And Miss Muffet's spider,
Who sat down beside her,
Is searching for something to say.
You're moving away, pulling away,
Saying that you never liked, you never loved,
Anyone.
But most of us know, and someday we'll show
It's not the least bit true.
So this time it is you.
And now you're seeing storm clouds
In the clearest, bluest skies.
If you can find, inside your mind,
Some room for me,
This is just my point of view, what should I do?
What should I do?
Chorus
Bridge:
You wanted more than I could give,
You gave me more than I could take.
You thought the world could be your oyster,
But never looked beyond the lake.
You're always disappointed,
And now we all know why.
Eye for an eye,
I for an I.
Chorus
You were conceited,
You're scared now.
Really Close to Perfect
I thought I'd gained admittance to your heart.
You said I had,
But now I'm sad 'cuz everything's gone.
(I) should have seen it coming from the start.
You're always glad.
And it's too bad that everything's wrong.
You've said it all before, and now I see
Chorus:
I'm just another of your rejects.
Everything in your life
Has to be
Really fucking perfect,
Well I'm really close to perfect,
Why not me?
We never spoke of problems that arose.
We let them stay,
And that's the way it fell apart.
You think that there is nothing to oppose.
You have your way,
But not today, my broken heart
Is crying out, "Why is it always me?"
Chorus
Bridge:
You said I wasn't trying--
I tried as hard as hell!
You assume to tell me I don't care any longer.
Well, I know that you're lying,
You're hiding in a shell,
Protected from admitting I have been proven stronger, I'm stronger.
There's just no logic to your frame of mind.
You've been unkind,
And yes I mind, you're saying things like,
"No one ever gave a shit for me."
(and I'm) Chorus
Really fucking perfect?
Well, I'm really fucking perfect,
Why not me?
Kamikaze
Shell-shocked into growing up,
I'm so scared I might throw up.
Nightmares coming true as life,
Always adding to my strife.
I can't even breathe today--
How could I have run away?
Nothing ventured, nothing gained.
All's for naught when one's in pain.
Chorus:
Everything's gone black.
I know I'm gonna fall.
And when I do, I'll know it's true--
You never cared at all.
Broken hearts cannot be fixed
By words that hurt like stones and sticks.
There's nothing else for you to say.
I wonder why you choose to stay.
You'll imagine, you'll pretend,
But you must know that it's the end.
And if you ever gave a shit,
You've stopped by now, why not admit?
Chorus
Kamikaze road to hell--
You led me down, you know it well,
You threw me off a cliff nearby,
And, when I landed, watched me die.
I stared, at length, into the sun
And now I can't see anyone.
I looked because I saw your face.
I crumbled under your embrace.
Chorus
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